Officially, this is my fourth blog. I drowned the sirena on our kitchen sink. Kasi naman, may dyesebel na kaya nagbago na rin ako ng image. Kidding aside, I just want to grow-up; to make changes of my routine. It is not that I got tired to be called the sirena, I just felt I needed another ‘home.’ And I guess, I found it here in distant colors. It defines kung ano ako ngayon at kung nasaan ako.
I miss everything na meron lang ako last year, then para lang roller coaster na nagbago ang lahat. I am now working and wala nang halos alam sa mundo ng graphics at lay-out design. I think inborn na sa akin ang pagiging artist kaso mukhang may expiration date ang mga talents ko.
I feel lonely now, malayo sa pamilya at nakagisnang buhay. Siyempre, medyo may pagka-independent ang drama ko ngayon, thank you na lang din at okay ang mga kasamahan ko sa work. I am coping each day on everything that I am learning to dealing with everybody.
Okay na rin dahil lagi naman akong nasasabihan that I badly needed to grow-up. May midlife crisis ba na para sa mga early 20s na tulad ko, kung may ganun, probably I am experiencing it. Life here in Indonesia is sort of freaky for me. Wala kayang mga coffee shops, malls na madaling puntahan but really I can deal with it pero yun mapalayo sa mga tropa, pamilya that is the worst feeling I am having right now.
Sometimes, I start to question myself if working abroad is really what I wanted. I am dreaming of travelling pero nakakawindang pala if you stayed too much sa isang lugar na alien ka. Maybe I am feeling this right now kasi things happened too soon. But I am blessed with all the opportunities that are coming. Amen!
So far, marami akong natutunan nung mag start ako as process engineer, at least nakikita ko na yun mga nababasa ko lang dati sa Perry’s HB. Career-wise, I think I can grow with this job, pero if other things considered like financially, hindi siguro masyado. I am looking forward to go home, kasi hindi na ako mukhang si ‘anna,’ siempre kailangan mag-recharge sa ‘pinas para good to go ulit for the next assignment sa trabaho.
Hopefully, internet connection will be fine here para lagi akong makakapag-update. Mark thinks my attitude now is much much better compared before, nonetheless, I miss the maldita in me. X0x0
I miss everything na meron lang ako last year, then para lang roller coaster na nagbago ang lahat. I am now working and wala nang halos alam sa mundo ng graphics at lay-out design. I think inborn na sa akin ang pagiging artist kaso mukhang may expiration date ang mga talents ko.
I feel lonely now, malayo sa pamilya at nakagisnang buhay. Siyempre, medyo may pagka-independent ang drama ko ngayon, thank you na lang din at okay ang mga kasamahan ko sa work. I am coping each day on everything that I am learning to dealing with everybody.
Okay na rin dahil lagi naman akong nasasabihan that I badly needed to grow-up. May midlife crisis ba na para sa mga early 20s na tulad ko, kung may ganun, probably I am experiencing it. Life here in Indonesia is sort of freaky for me. Wala kayang mga coffee shops, malls na madaling puntahan but really I can deal with it pero yun mapalayo sa mga tropa, pamilya that is the worst feeling I am having right now.
Sometimes, I start to question myself if working abroad is really what I wanted. I am dreaming of travelling pero nakakawindang pala if you stayed too much sa isang lugar na alien ka. Maybe I am feeling this right now kasi things happened too soon. But I am blessed with all the opportunities that are coming. Amen!
So far, marami akong natutunan nung mag start ako as process engineer, at least nakikita ko na yun mga nababasa ko lang dati sa Perry’s HB. Career-wise, I think I can grow with this job, pero if other things considered like financially, hindi siguro masyado. I am looking forward to go home, kasi hindi na ako mukhang si ‘anna,’ siempre kailangan mag-recharge sa ‘pinas para good to go ulit for the next assignment sa trabaho.
Hopefully, internet connection will be fine here para lagi akong makakapag-update. Mark thinks my attitude now is much much better compared before, nonetheless, I miss the maldita in me. X0x0
